A lot of things running in my head now.
That day, my friend was very happy to tell me about her new bf.
^^
Oh, im so happy for u dear.
U worth it, u really do.
Thank you for telling me.
Recently is 'pampered' with lotsa assignments and work,
i feel kinda nausea towards these now.
Check this out,one of my slides for video of antimicrobe assignment:
I feel that myself is awesome *pui*
But it's still good to be positive right..
It's very hot in my room now,
i still feel cold around my shoulders,
i got goose bumps.
Human= weird
When u wanna walk forward, u feel like staying.
When u wanna stay at current position,
u feel like moving forward.
Sometimes, i wish to find someone to talk with me.
Many many things, and all of it is about me.
Just me, and someone will hold a big trash bin to hold what i have spilled out.
I missed those days with 3 of us.
We talked and talked,
and i can cried in front of u,
u won't disagree with anything,u said i'm right.
Ask me to put it down, even though i feel uneasy to cry in front of someone.
U make it alright.
I remember those days i cry under my blanket.
Wet my eye shade thoroughly.
I remember i walked out when we are watching Step Up using my lappie.
U both came out to see what happened to me.
Because of the sms.
I remember when i yelled at the phone in the midnight outside my room,
she accidentally passed by and asked me why.
And it ended up with me crying aloud.
I remember she told me that a friend told her,
someone was having a talk with the gang.
I feel so weak.
And another friend, told me i will become crazy one day because of these.
Now i know why i will feel cold and shiver while it's very hot in my room.
Sometimes, i feel scare.
After u wiped your tears for a several times,
u stop crying.
You don't know it is because the weather makes your tear evaporates too fast
or just now it is your imagination,
u just pictured yourself as crying.
I hope for the latter one.
But my cheek still feels wet.
I want to be positive.
A wish.
